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Dancing in the Devil’s Shoes by MarieRuby

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre: Canon AU
Length: Under 5K
Rating:

Mature

Secondary Characters:

None


Secondary Pairings: None
Themes: 2×11, 2×12, Angst,

Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Established Relationship,

Hurt & Comfort,

Magnus POV,

Self Harm,

Suicidal Thoughts

Summary:

His legs are not working. No matter how much he tries, the swirling mess in his head makes it impossible to walk anywhere, take any action. It’s the last couple of days all over again. He wants to cry but the tears are dry. He wants to scream but his voice is gone.

His voice is gone.

——-
The aftermath of 2×11 and the consequences of the bodyswap for Magnus.

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Friends in Low Places by darkangel86

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre:

Canon AU

Length:

Under 5K

Rating:

Teen & Up

Secondary Characters: Jace Wayland,

Simon Lewis

Secondary Pairings:

None

Themes:

2×10,

Angst,

Domesticity,

Established Relationship, Family, Hurt & Comfort, Magnus POV, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt

Summary:

Magnus waited patiently for Jace to return to the loft from another late night of patrolling. It was apparently the only way the older man was ever going to be able to corner the stealthy blonde Shadowhunter. After trying for two days to no avail, Magnus decided his best bet would be to just wait. It was inevitable that he’d catch Jace coming and going eventually.

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A Different Kind of Hero by heartsdesire456

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre: Canon AU
Length:

5K – 10K

Rating:

Mature

Secondary Characters: Izzy Lightwood, Jace Wayland
Secondary Pairings: None
Themes:

1×12, 1×13, Alec POV, Coming Out,

Family, Hurt & Comfort,

Immortality Issue,

Internalized Homophobia, Kids,

Suicidal Thoughts

Summary:

When Alec receives a letter from an anonymous source, he realizes that his bravery in choosing to kiss Magnus at his wedding had far more of an impact than he could have ever imagined.

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Shaky Ground, Stabilized by onihunter305

Connected to Save It

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre: Canon AU
Length: Under 5K
Rating: General Audience
Secondary Characters: Izzy Lightwood,

Jocelyn Fairchild,

Raphael Santiago
Secondary Pairings: None
Themes: 2×09,

Alec POV,

Angst, Drugs, Established Relationship, Family,

Suicidal Thoughts

Summary:

Alec had once been told that he would blow up the very ground he stood on to make things right. If that was true, why did he feel as though the ground below him was disintegrating at the same rapid pace as the relationships he once held dearly.

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Breathing Room by maleccrazedauthor

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre: Canon AU
Length: Under 5K
Rating: Teen & Up
Secondary Characters: Clary Fray, Izzy Lightwood, Jace Wayland, 

Jocelyn Fairchild,

Maryse Lightwood, Valentine Morgenstern
Secondary Pairings:

None

Themes: 2×09,

Alec POV,

Angst, Established Relationship, Family, Suicidal Thoughts,

Suicide Attempt

Summary:

“I would expect no less of you, Alexander.”

“Shouldn’t you?” Alec scoffs. “It’s not like I’ve made a habit of being forgiving or even, I don’t know, gracious about, well, anything.”

“No one can deny you’ve taken some body blows recently.” Magnus’s fingers explore his in the dark, twining and stroking. “Made some incredible adjustments in your life and worldview. A certain shortage of…let us say ‘generosity of spirit’…is understandable. Up to a point.”

“I can’t afford that.” Alec’s eyes burn and he wipes them quickly. “That demon…latched onto something in me. We even spoke about it, when we were briefing before the hunt. We talked about profiling the people in the Institute, coming up with a list of who might be at-risk for a demon that feeds on anger. I should have been the first person we looked at. I should have been quarantined, locked away somewhere I couldn’t–”

“Hindsight is meant to be a learning tool, Alec, not a scourge.”

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Terra Incognita by reviate*

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre:

Canon Compliant

Length: 10K – 25K
Rating: Mature


Secondary Characters: Clary Fray, Izzy Lightwood, Jace Wayland, Jocelyn Fairchild, Maryse Lightwood, Max Lightwood, Valentine Morgenstern
Secondary Pairings: None
Collective Themes:

2×04, 2×05, 2×06, 2×07, 2×08, Alec POV,

Angst, Established Relationship, Family, Hurt & Comfort, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt, Warlock Mark Reveal

Summary:

There’s a growl, there’s a bang, there’s the gentle splashing of water, there’s the sound of his own breath, there’s something just out of range that’s whispering something. But he’s not thinking about that.

Basically the events from Jocelyn’s death to the aftermath of Alec’s suicide attempt, but Alec has a psychotic episode throughout.

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Spelled by Miss_Maddie01

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre: Canon AU
Length: Under 5K
Rating:

General Audience

Secondary Characters: Clary Fray, Izzy Lightwood, Jace Wayland, Jocelyn Fairchild, Maryse Lightwood, Max Lightwood
Secondary Pairings: None
Collective Themes: 2×08, Alec POV, Established Relationship, Family, Hurt & Comfort, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt

Summary:

Now Isabelle and Max were probably studying runes together in Izzy’s room, Clary and Jace were off talking about her pure angel blood and what to make of it, and Maryse had retreated to her room to rest before returning to Idris the next morning. Leaving Alec to his thoughts and an abused punching bag.

“You’re a murderer Alec, nothing more”
“Don’t worry, Nobody’s gonna miss you”
“Why are you still here?”
“You let a demon possess you.”
“You’re weak.”
The words Clary had said in his spelled mind rung in his head.

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The Night is Yours Alone by alittlebriton

Chapters:

Chaptered Fic

Genre: Canon AU
Length:

5K – 10K

Rating:

Explicit

Secondary Characters: Clary Fray, Izzy Lightwood, Jace Wayland, Jocelyn Fairchild, Maryse Lightwood, Max Lightwood,

Robert Lightwood,

Valentine Morgenstern
Secondary Pairings:

Clary Fray / Jace Wayland, Clary Fray / Simon Lewis,

Maryse Lightwood / Robert Lightwood

Collective Themes: 2×08, Alec POV,

Angst,

Established Relationship, Family, Hurt & Comfort, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt, Warlock Mark Reveal

Summary:

Coda/ fix-it fic for Love is A Devil. Conversations in various stages of darkness.

Alec pressed against him. “Hey,” he whispered, before finding Magnus’ mouth briefly. “Can we not… worry about stuff? Just for a while. And go back to worrying later?”

“Is this the Alexander Lightwood way of asking me to fool around? By turning it into something to do in between worrying?”

Magnus grinned at him as Alec pushed at his shoulder in protest, and then Alec shrugged.

“Yeah, kinda.”

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Hurts Like Hell by TwilightHayley

Chapters:

Chaptered Fic 
Genre: Canon AU
Length: Under 5K
Rating:

Teen & Up 
Secondary Characters: Clary Fray, Izzy Lightwood, Jace Wayland,

Luke Garroway,

Maryse Lightwood, Max Lightwood,

Ragnor Fell, Raphael Santiago, Simon Lewis
Secondary Pairings: None 
Collective Themes: 2×08,

Angst,

Established Relationship, Family, Kids, Hurt & Comfort,

Magnus POV,

Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt, Warlock Mark Reveal

Summary:

Five times a fear demon affects Magnus and the one time Alec won’t let it.

Or, a prediction of the events of 2×08.

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“Well I Suppose…” by @isabellebiwoods

Chapters: One-Shot
Genre: Canon AU
Length: Under 5K
Rating: Not Rated
Secondary Characters:

Clary Fray,

Izzy Lightwood,

Jace Wayland,

Jocelyn Fairchild,

Maryse Lightwood, Max Lightwood,

Valentine Morgenstern

Secondary Pairings: None
Collective Themes: 2×08, Alec POV, Established Relationship, Family, Kids, Hurt & Comfort,

Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Attempt,

Warlock Mark Reveal

Summary:

A rewrite of 2×08 with some wholesome Max Lightwood and Magnus feels. I just really love the idea of Magnus winning over each Lightwood sibling, and Alec just going heart-eyes over how much magnus genuinely like(loves) Max. Also maybe Magnus talking to Alec about his [suicide] attempt and them not getting interrupted like in 2×09.