The Only Thing Holding Me Back is You by curupia
Chapters: One-Shot
Genre:
Canon Compliant
Length:
Under 1K
Rating: General Audience
Secondary Characters: None
Secondary Pairings: None
Themes: 2×18, Alec POV, Angst, Break Up,
Summary:
Ironic. That the thing Magnus feared the most was also what Alec had been afraid of. What he’d always somewhat known, in that little part of his mind that he tried so hard to silence. The voice that being with Magnus had almost silenced. That he, Alexander Lightwood, was both too much and not enough for the person he loved.
Too much: too demanding, too needy, to inexperienced, too apt to making mistakes, too draining, too useless.
Not enough: not good enough, at being a boyfriend, at being a leader, at being an ally. Not strong enough for Magnus to want to lean on, not open enough for Magnus to want to pour himself into. The little bit he had – which was everything he had – wasn’t enough to keep them together, wasn’t worth the effort.
He wasn’t worth the effort.