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Magnus is it for me, Izzy. He’s it. He’s everything I always dreamed of but always knew I could never have and yet, somehow he’s here, with me and I am never letting him go.

Magnus is the most beautiful man he’s ever had the privilege of seeing. And he’s staring at Alec like he’s the wonder in the room.

Magnus has always been in that nebulous role of a lover, where the definition is fluid and dynamic, a romantic connection between souls and bodies. A husband is something entirely different. The idea of being one is – it’s frightening. The idea of being wanted as one is humbling. It’s something Magnus has never considered, seen as something that could be possible in his future. But Magnus had never expected Alec – had never expected what it would mean to be loved by a shadowhunter who is a good man and a traditional one. Who loves Magnus not just between the tangled sheets of their bed, a perfect and untouchable pocket of time and space, but also in the difficult, complicated reality of the world outside the two of them that must be navigated. Magnus doesn’t expect how much he wants it.

You know what you’re really frightened of? Someone really loving you—heart and soul. Someone you can’t hide from. That person who sees all the ugly pieces of yourself that you’ve been hiding away for years. Those parts of yourself that have made countless other people run away. It is terrifying when you find the person who sees all of that, but doesn’t leave as fast as they can. Because you finally begin to let down walls, yet you’re constantly wondering what the one thing will be that breaks them. But the thing is…. When you find that person, there’s nothing that will drive them away. And that…. That is even more terrifying.