Magnus was his whole world- he made his world better and brighter and livelier. Alec remembered life before Magnus, when he was still in the closet and scared of being himself and never laughed or went out with his friends, terrified that his eyes would linger on a cute guy for too long, or that he would slip up and accidentally say something that would give himself away. He was so scared back then… and then Magnus had literally barged into his life, taken him by the hand, and shown him all the amazing possibilities in front of him. Showed him what true happiness could be. Showed him unconditional love and friendship.

It’s always scary to abandon yourself to someone, to put your heart in their hands and trust them with it. It doesn’t mean it’s not worth it.

I hope he does find someone who loves him as much as I do after I’m gone. I love him, why would I want him to be alone and sad for hundreds of years? I hope after he gets through grieving me, he finds someone who loves him and makes him happy. Anybody that doesn’t want that doesn’t really love their immortal husband.

He loves this moment. He loves this part of Magnus just like he loves all parts of Magnus, but this is special. This is something only those closest to Magnus see, and to be allowed this privilege makes him feel more important than he’s ever been told he could be. As a boy, he grew up in Jace’s shadow, always quieter, always less worthy of praise. It didn’t matter that he could handle a bow like he was born for it. He just wasn’t fast enough, wasn’t charismatic enough, wasn’t good-looking enough. He’s used to it. He doesn’t expect or need to be seen to perform his job, and he’s always thought he could live with that, could spend the rest of his life cleaning up Jace’s messes and playing uncredited supporting roles. But then Magnus saw him. He saw him and found him the most interesting thing in a room that also contained Jace and Isabelle, and Alec can’t go back. He can’t forget the dizzy elation of being somebody’s first choice.

Seeing Magnus so relaxed and happy was doing things to his insides and had him suddenly wishing that he could do that everyday. Make Magnus Bane laugh in some way or the other. Because right at that moment, he was sure he’d never heard anything as beautiful as the sound of Magnus laughing, nor had he seen anything as beautiful as that radiant smile.