You know what you’re really frightened of? Someone really loving you—heart and soul. Someone you can’t hide from. That person who sees all the ugly pieces of yourself that you’ve been hiding away for years. Those parts of yourself that have made countless other people run away. It is terrifying when you find the person who sees all of that, but doesn’t leave as fast as they can. Because you finally begin to let down walls, yet you’re constantly wondering what the one thing will be that breaks them. But the thing is…. When you find that person, there’s nothing that will drive them away. And that…. That is even more terrifying.
I may not know a lot when it comes to relationships, big brother, but I know fear. It never really goes away—it just changes as we change. […] You’re never going to get rid of all your fear, Alec, but you have to decide how much of your life it dictates.
Once Alec is in, he’s all in. He gives everything for what he believes in—ideals and people. Alec is tough, but his penchant for self-sacrifice leaves him vulnerable.
He always seemed to lose his ability to speak when Magnus was around, but saying what he was thinking out loud was important. Getting his words right was important. Because Magnus was important.
As the goalie for the New York City Blazing Angels, Alec Lightwood thinks he’s finally found the team he can go all the way to the championship cup with. Then his agent and financial advisor are arrested for stealing their clients’ money, and Alec is forced to take on a side job doing endorsement deals, plus find a way to trust his new agent–Magnus Bane.
Alec hates Magnus the first time he sets eyes on him. Magnus hates Alec more. But they’re going to have to find some way to work together if Alec is going to make it to the championship.
After two long years of intensive work, I will finally be done with my thesis and, by extension, my graduate degree in a few short weeks. Shortly thereafter, I’ll be off on a two-week-long, celebratory vacation. When I come back though, as a huge thank you for the support you all have given this blog, I’d like to try something a little different.
For the last four months, I have been posting recommendations based on my own fic preferences. While I have received several asks for specific kinds of recs, there have not been many opportunities for my followers to decide what is posted here.
Both as a thank you and as a way to branch out, I want to honor your fic rec requests for a full two weeks. In order to do that, I obviously need to hear your opinions.
Here’s how it will work:
This Wednesday, May 3rd, I will post a link to the Fic Preference Poll. It will be open for the three weeks leading up to my thesis defense date and during that time it will be available to all who would like to participate. Whether or not you have a blog, whether or not you’re a follower, I would love to get your input on your Malec fic preferences. This is, quite literally, all about you.
The poll will close on Wednesday, May 24th at 9:00 P.M. EST. If everything goes well, I will have passed my thesis defense. Although I will be working on revisions, I should have a bit more free time to start finding and reading fics based on your preferences.
I will post the results of the poll on Monday, May 29th (probably with charts and everything, because that’s the kind of nerd I am) so you know what to expect. I leave for vacation in the middle of June, but during that time I will continue finding, reading, and preparing recs for fics based on these results.
The recs will start posting on Monday July, 3rd and will run through Sunday July 16th.
I’m hoping that this allows for more of an interactive experience on the blog and, if it goes well, I would love to do something like this again. I’m already in the planning stages for one such event at the beginning of August. Remember, this is about your preferences so please take the time to make them known.
Please send me a message if you have any questions or concerns.
Set in the AU of episode 10: This World Inverted. Magnus meets Alec’s ex and starts to worry that a centuries-old warlock who’s kind of boring hiding behind his mundane facade, isn’t enough for the lovely Alec Lightwood.
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